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Forgiveness is a powerful thing

I damaged a friendship beyond repair. Years later something wonderful happened

Two friends sitting on dock by long grass

This post contains course language, vulgarity and sexual references. Some readers may find certain passages offensive and/or distasteful.

SHE WAS A LOVELY PERSON AND FRIEND. But I had wrecked our friendship.

By no means was it intentional, she was more collateral damage than anything. Caught in the wake of my manic . . .

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January 30, 2019

Why I'm saying 'no' to perfectionism

Imperfect action is a lot better for my mental health

Sign that reads 'wisdom', with perfectionism crossed out underneathPerfectionism is not altogether a bad thing. It's good to have high standards.

But it's doing me more harm than good.

I think I may have unwittingly passed my perfectionism on to my kids.

I realized this playing catch with my son. He was way too hard on himself because he wasn't catching every ball.

One of my simplest . . .

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June 08, 2018

Living with depression sucks

I wonder why I put myself through the mental wringer

Figurine comforting a sad figurine

Editor's Note: Since time of writing, I've developed strategies to set priorities, respectful boundaries, and most of all, be kind to myself. Thank you to my family, friends and workplace for their support.

DEPRESSION TRACKS LIKE A NINJA, quietly plotting his course in the dark; muted footfalls, cagey eyes.

Living with it . . .

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April 19, 2018

Some dude texted me by accident and said he was going to kill himself

I called him backā€”find out what happened

Diary note, anger, shame, potential suicidal thoughts

The call came at 5:09 on a cold January morning, waking me from a sound sleep. It was a text-to-landline message.

"Goodbye Nicole, I love you," the robotic voice said. An obvious wrong number.

I thought about the message. Maybe it was a husband sending a sweet message to his wife. But I felt a finality to it; five words can mean . . .

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January 31, 2018

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